काश

काश के वो मुझे कभी मिले ही ना,

पर उसके ख़्वाब उसके ख़याल हमेशा रहें।

वो मेरे पास कभी हो ही ना,

और मैं अपनी ज़िंदगी उसकी ख़्वाहिश मैं गुज़ार दूँ।

मैं उसके दर पर भटकता रहूँ,

पर वो दरवाज़ा मेरे लिए कभी खुले ही ना।

क्यूँकि जो मज़ा माशूक़ के रुसवा होने मैं है,

वो उसे हासिल करने मैं कहाँ?

मैं इस बात से ख़ुश राहु के वो मोहब्बत-ए-ज़िंदगी थी,

कोई जलवा-ए-जुनून तो नहीं ।

फिर सालों बाद हादसे से वो मुझे मिले,

और उस हादसे से वो मुझे मिलें।

फिर मेरे ख़्वाब उसकी हक़ीक़त बन जाएँ,

और मेर हक़ीक़त उसके ख़्वाब बन जाएँ।

A beautiful Triumph!

"Her rosy lips, her cherry eyes,

She knew no roofs, she went over skies.

Her silky hair, her milky cheek

Looking her beauty, an angel would freak.

The way she smiled, the way she walked,

The air would freeze, the time would stop.

My mere existence was brought to heel,

When for the first time she talked to me.

Now, my life now will turn apart soon,

because I kissed her this noon."

The Ride

And then the ride started. She was sitting right besides me. Everything was dark in there. In the beginning it was amusing just like a Sci Fi movie and we were enjoying it. Suddenly we heard the words “magnetic field started” and the roller coaster car began to move rapidly, faster and faster. This was the first time in my life I felt so scared. Not because my claustrophobia, but because I didn't see it coming.

As the speed increased I hold her hand tightly. And then the coaster car took three 360° loops in succession. Everything was dark and yet I had a glance of heaven. With the increasing speed and unprecedented loops, I was worried of the fact that why am I holding her hand? (though I always wanted to be with her but this demonstrates that I am a coward). Why I was scared and she was not?. How would she react to it? Would this be another topic for my friend to tease me?

After a few moments the ride ended. I was still holding her hand sitting in the car. Everyone else was leaving. She kept her other hand on my hand and said ,”Hota hai (It Happens)”. Then for a brief moment we she looked into my eyes and smiled. This was the smile I wanted to see my entire life.I wanted to this face every morning I wake up, every time I come home from a hard day, in every ups and downs of my life, till eternity. Now, we both were holding each other's hand looking at each other and had a magical moment.

I wished if I could freeze the time. I wanted to live in that moment and never wanted to get out of it. The same moment that took My Breath Away give me reason to live.

Was it a dream?

It was a weekday, I slept early since on the next day I had to go to college. Suddenly in the night I heard a noise, it took me a couple of minutes to figure out that it was our door bell. Who in the hell rings arrived at such a disgusting time, why anyone is not opening the door.
Getting irritated by the bell, I decided to open the door myself, And what I figured out was that I as unable to get up from the bed, my legs were nonfunctional, I couldn't even sit properly, some how I crawled and went to the door and opened it with great efforts and I was astonished to to find out a flipkart delivery boy, delivering a free pizza.

A Labyrinthine Enigma (episode 1)

A Friday night around 10 O'clock, it was raining beautifully. I was dreaming of various fictitious weekend plan. May be on a magical island with someone, or fighting a classic traditional battle with swords and arrows, or may be to smack the f@#king moron who messed with me in the morning in the same way the as the character of movie did which I saw recently.

Suddenly a message notification popped out of my phone saying," Hey dude, I need your help." I thought who needs my help and that too at this time. I opened it and came to know it was Neil. I was amazed that this man wanted help from me...I was on Mars then. I came back to earth quickly inside my room on my bed and asked him, “Dude! What happened...??". "I am confused. I am unable to study or do anything for that matter, she is not answering my calls and not replying to my texts, I have been trying for an hour, usually she never do like this. And it was just a small joke, so why did she get offended so much...etc.etc."

After his long thread I asked him the most important question, “Who is she? What is her name?  How does she looks..??" He replied with a Hindi gaali and added some mcbc's to it. Now I was interested in that girl he was talking about (usually an engineering student is always interested in any girl and they do gossip a lot) and also how this idiot got on with her. So I said, “Dude..! To solve your mystery, I need your history...And the Physics behind your Chemistry..(I am such a great poet)"

And then he began, “Once upon a time when we were in 3rd Semester (by the way were in 5th Semester then) we had to arrange a fresher’s party for the first year. I am pursuing mechanical engineering, so naturally I had to make friends from comps and IT department. (you know what I mean). We were acting in a play to welcome the firsties. I had given an audition and got selected (for a minor role). Then I saw her, on that very moment I said to a boy standing next to me, “Iss bar ka lot accha hai". And when I heard his reply I was shocked, what he said was, "Ye lot purana hi hai" how did this happened I was here for an entire year and I didn't saw her one single time, this is not done. Shame on me. Anyways I had to correct my mistake, so I went to her did some silliest yet effective conversations of my life. I would call it as ‘The Butterfly Effect’ of my life.    

And then the play began though she was in lead role in the play and I was playing role of her brother in it, the reality was much different. Because slowly and steadily i was becoming the hero of the story. She was the first girl that I had liked so much in my entire life (actually not), and the first one to give me a positive response. Later the 'play session' ended and our play was one of the best play the college had ever had in its entire history (according to me). This was the time when the real play started. Within five-six we came very close to each other and I proposed her and thankfully got a positive reply. I am not going to tell you the entire story. But a fair amount of love ship was the between us until a few hours ago."

I shared the problem with Mr. Phmurzey my Talisman, he was sitting right beside me. Instead of giving me any suggestion he started scolding me, Phmurzey said," It is you who requires help, he have had his girl, and you just keep on thinking on what should have happened. If I had been a little brave then my life would have been different. And instead of holding her cheeks you will be holding cheeks of her children who would call you 'mama'." And I realised that my problem was knotty. Niel would get solution of his problem soon, I would keep on wishing to have such problems. I should've really done something rigid. My life is now more cryptic than his walking aimlessly towards unknown destination. But it is not like that I had done nothing, it was just a case that didn't work on.  I kept on reciting my mistakes and defending the decisions made by me for at least an hour or two. Surely Mr. Phmurzey had been a tangent between Niel and me.

It was 2'O clock and then another message appeared on my screen. Again it was him (Niel). This time it said,

"This is nothing but me talking with me. Everyone - This is nothing but me talking with me. Everyone has its unique talent which becomes there habit. Someone loves to drive, someone loves to talk, someone loves to keep boasting about themselves & someone is simply too shy to love anything. Well, if you ask about me then I'm a THINKER.. I can talk myself for a whole day without taking a break. But there is someone about whom I can't stop thinking. It's really confusing. Now I can't bear this anymore. It's killing me yaar. So I decided to express it. 

I don't know how I should describe her. She is a magician & her biggest magic is her killing smile. Her those cheeks are just like cherry on the cake. She is like an oasis in my desert.

Now it's been almost a year I am with her. I think, she is the first ever thing I like in this college till now. Otherwise if you visit our college, you will find nothing that can interest you. I admired her presence her touch, and her absence is killing me. If I couldn't met her then I think my life will end up soon."  

...to be continued

The unknown...

 Who are you? I dont know who are you?

 Are you some angel who came from heaven to take experience of earth, or you are a sleeper cell planning to plant a bomb.Are you keeper of a 'Dragon Ball' or a person from the world of Harry Potter who came by crossing platform no 9 3/4th.

 Some personalities are whimsical. You cannot predict what they are, the moment you start predicting some thing about them, their acts start proving you wrong... very worng. At a specific moment you find them as your closest friend, the nearest and the dearest, and on very next day you find something starnge in it that you have never seen before. Your become confuse is that the same person...

 But you...you are different. Different in every aspect. You potray to be very cheerful, enthusiastic, full of enery, seductive, arrogant, naughty, always tensed (and many more adjectives) person but inside you there is something mysterious, unkown, some dark secret that you always hide from every body.

 Recenlty, I saw a movie called 'Kahani' with my friend Mr. Phmurzey and as we were discussing about it in the evening he told me his perspective about you and the similarity between both of you. Mr. Phmurzey is genius. In the movie the actress potrays a character of another person for her revenge.

 Similary, I think you live a lavish life but there 'the dark side' your life who does not allows you to be what you are.

 I am really waiting for that day when the person you look, the person you show you are and the actual person you are , are same.

 Because you are the one who has helped me to get rid of my negative side of live and I along with Mr. Phmurzey wants to see the real person in you...